Final update: Bianca is here! 

It is finished! (Bonus points if you get the Biblical reference…😜)

Bianca Ashleigh Metcalfe is here!

Let the photos be uploaded!

/sbin/e2fsck… she’s more beautiful in person than she is on the JY Doll site!

Thank you and whoop whoop MMFWCL Don Delano of Mon Amour Toujours! I am again a satisfied customer.

Thank you, be excellent to each other, and…

Good night y’all! 

Live blog update: Held For Pickup! 

Tracking number and pickup location redacted for safety. 

It’s on like Donkey Kong! (A TRS-80 Color Computer clone of Donkey Kong by Tom Mix Software [later Datasoft] was called Donkey King [later renamed The King]… but that’s another blog post!)

I’ll be picking her up in a couple hours.

Again, updates will be posted as they happen. 

Welcome to the live blog of Bianca’s arrival! 

Today is a very big and special day for me and Elisabeth.

First, I apologize for not updating this blog like I’ve desired. It’s that I’m no longer in Muncie, Indiana, but in Fort Worth, Texas, now.

Yeah, where RadioShack used to be headquartered, but that’s not the reason why the move to Fort Worth.

I am actually renting a room with a fellow TDF member.


It’s time to start the live blog!  

I know I’m about an hour late than my originally promised start time. (Woke up a bit late…)

But the FedEx tracking page says Bianca is in town and is about ready to be picked up.

Let’s give a quick bio of Bianca.

Bianca is my second doll from Mon Amour Toujours
She is a JY Dolls 140 cm (4’7″) doll, TPE, head #32. She also has the new skeleton and improved TPE formula. 
Weight: 50 pounds

In a few moments, my roommate, Meso (he requested that I use his TDF name instead of his real name) and I will be heading off to the FedEx hub here in town, near DFW airport, to pick her up. 

Updates will be blogged as they happen. 

Part II of “Goodbye Facebook”…

Well, I didn’t update yesterday because I got a bit busy with other things.

But being 48 hours totally Facebook-free is nirvana I tell you! No emails from Facebook saying:

Hi Alexandra (or Hi Elisabeth),

A lot has happened on Facebook since the last time you visited.

Hold on. What? A lot? Like, pray tell, is “a lot?”


1 message

2 group updates

Or, for Elisabeth,

30 new friends

5 pokes


1 message

Like, that’s a lot? That ain’t shit. Whatever. The message is from somebody begging me to come back to Atascadero, California, which I said numerous times to that person that Muncie, Indiana is my home now and I’ve been nearly seven months clean from using meth, going back to California is only gonna make it worse.

The two group updates are just useless drivel.

Those constant “A lot has happened on Facebook (*cough*bullshit*cough*) since you last logged in” emails are designed to engage you. Zuckerberg loses money each six seconds you’re not logged in. Oh well, I don’t give a fuck. It’s like a drug dealer. He (or she) wants you to use the product. Each time you refuse, they lose money. Facebook wants you to keep using. (Facebook, that is.)

However, on the Twitter universe, Elisabeth and I have been engaged in useful, constructive and relevant conversations where it isn’t drowned out by too much irrelevant noise. That’s a thing called signal-to-noise ratio. Originally used in electronics and broadcasting, to determine the effectiveness of a component (like an op-amp) or a transmitter; but it’s also used to measure how much a message would be noticed on a social networking site among the other stories presented.

Facebook has a horrible signal-to-noise ratio; while Twitter’s is better, but not by much, according to some. The ratios experienced by Elisabeth and I on Facebook vs. Twitter are astonishing.

Facebook had a horrible signal-to-noise ratio; while Twitter has a better one. Relevant updates and stories were pushed downward on Facebook, even if just posted two seconds ago, favoring sponsored stories and older, possibly in the past, stories. Twitter shows new as new. A “new” post on Facebook has been realized that it isn’t new, but determined by Facebook’s algorithm to be “relevant” and new. Something posted two hours ago isn’t new.

And a photo like this:

On Facebook, it would have gotten flagged. There isn’t anything wrong with it. But someone, or a Facebook bot, would probably flag it. Why? Because it contains a sex toy in it! Elisabeth ain’t no sex toy.

This photo of Elisabeth and I encouraging each other for getting me out of a deep hole I am still trying to get out of got a lot of likes and encouraging comments on Twitter.

But the church thing I hinted at the last post, yep. I’m a Methodist now. I finally told the Mormon cult through spiritual means that their Jesus ain’t the real thing, and I won’t deal with the idiots masterminded in Salt Lake City; and that I found the real Jesus. I’m still a Juggalette, after all, Juggalos and Lettes follow God. (Listen to “Thy Unveiling” from The Wraith: Shangri-La to understand.)

I have also emailed the Mormon leaders informing of the lawsuit I have against them. They have 15 days to respond under Indiana law.

But I hope I’ll continue to spread the news.

Later, homies.

Goobye Facebook, and a slew of updates!

Anyone remember this post? “Fuck you Facebook for the LAST TIME!”? About how I told Mark Zuckerberg on how I was tired of Facebook locking me out just because I was logging in from the WiFi at Muncie Public Library instead from the Atascadero Library? Wanted me to submit identification (that’s a risk to submit that… by email is how they want it… totally insecure) or by updating mobile phone info. To me, that opens a Pandora’s box of getting nagged.

Elisabeth had a Facebook account, also. She’s just a DSDoll EX Lite (ATLJED approved supplier, Mon Amour Toujours link) but she got 112 friend requests! Who are even 99% of these people?

I am sorry to report, T is no longer my boyfriend. Sad? Fuck no! I found out he was using Facebook to lure me and ruin me. If anyone gets a friend request from Tearence Michael Walters on Facebook to partner with him in his fake ass “Emperial Props Studios,” don’t accept his request. Haul ass and block him! He will ruin you. Take it from a survivor. He will gaslight you so badly, and if you have a doll, he would want it for his own. You will face his lies, which he even believes, when he kicks you out to the streets, and will exhort money out of you, stating it’s to “pay him back” to get her back for you, when she hadn’t even left his house, and she would be mutilated.

And Tearence is not his real first name. His Indiana BMV identification card says it’s Michael Kelly Walters. If his name really was Tearence Michael Walters, it would be noted on his Indiana BMV RealID credential. The Indiana BMV’s requirements for proof of identity. It requires the full birth name indicated on the document. (I had to go to the BMV a few days ago to get my Indiana ID because my Virginia DMV identification card was expired and a crooked cop in Atascadero, California stolen it; and I don’t claim residency in the Commonwealth of Virginia any longer. So, I know the details.)

I can go on about him, but to save my sanity, I won’t. He’s in my past and I’m sure as hell he won’t be in my future anymore.

Continuing on, Elisabeth and I agreed it was time to cut ties with Facebook. We deleted our accounts. Not just simply deactivated, but deleted them.

We’re on Twitter, though. Follow us, I’m @alexa_tilbrook and Elisabeth is @LissieEXLite.

On another note, another Mon Amour Toujours hottie is coming home soon! Bianca Ashleigh Metcalfe!

Cute, ain’t she?

Alright, this sums it up for now. Church tomorrow. I’ll explain that tomorrow. (Spoiler alert: it’s definitely not the Mormon church!)

Alright, later!

Firefox, you were such a good friend, but now you’re an asshole. I’ve found Chrome and we’ve been better off.

Dear Mozilla Firefox,

The reason why I hung on to you, Firefox, was for one reason, and one reason only: DownThemAll!, or “dTA” for short, but now that you have been breaking simple functionality, and adding useless features that frustrated me more, like your swipe gesture bullshit, that no matter how I tried to break you of that bad behavior (in about:config), deleting the strings that made you do that, and restarting you, has only made you not only ignore my request to stop that behavior, but also give me no obvious way to do stop you from doing so.

And you broke my most favorite extension of all, that made me hung on to you so long: DownThemAll!. Yeah, so what if it’s a “Legacy” extension. If it ain’t broke, don’t fuckin’ fix it, m’kay?

I remember it not so long ago… Internet Explorer was causing me so much trouble (remember, I was using Windows 98 and XP at the time), and somebody showed me how much cooler Firefox was over IE. Tabbed browsing?? You mean I don’t have to have 27 windows open for separate web pages? Sign me up! So, I went to, downloaded your installer and I was in love.

But now it’s 2017. You’ve become a bloated fat whore now. Even in Linux, where I do my computing now. I don’t need to delete and recreate my profile every stinking time you decide to fuck up.

I am about to, after I write this, is show you the door by going to my terminal, and typing

sudo apt-get --yes purge firefox

And get on with my life.

Oh, Firefox, what is that you say? “What about DownThemAll, there is no way in hell they written a Chrome extension!” Well, yes, that’s true. But there is something close to it in the Google Chrome Store. It’s called Batch Link Downloader and the developer said it’s a “dTA alternative for Chrome.” It works. Enough said. I won’t have all the functionality of dTA 100%, but to emulate it, I use this extension too: Disable Download Bar, and hit CTRL+J to open the Downloads window in another tab.

Yeah, sure, I have to hit “Save” for each and every file (because in chrome://settings I have “Ask where to save each downloaded file” checked), but it’s not that big of an annoyance over having to restart broken dTA batch downloads that you, Firefox, had to fuck up.

Sorry, Firefox, you were a great browser, but you’ve really had your chance, and it’s time for you to leave. And shit, Firefox, why can’t you support the zoom gesture in Android that has been supported by Chrome for Android since Jelly Bean? I don’t want to have to use the two-finger pinch to zoom that is so iOS, that’s why I don’t have a fucking iPhone.

Google Chrome, welcome aboard. Firefox, see you later… NOT!

Alexa Tilbrook

Hi y’all!

Sorry but Alexa is kinda busy right now.

I’ve been with her for a little over a month already and all I gotta say is that she’s one loving Lette!

And this FBI bullshit about us Juggalos and Juggalettes being a gang? What. The. Fuck???? Are the Mormons butthurt? It seems like it because did you know that the NSA has a huge ass data farm in SALT LAKE CITY?

Go to hell, Mormons. You need to quit spying on people. Go back to your nonexistent planet “Kolob.” I’ll make you “hie” there quicker than two jiggles of my ass!

Howdy Ho! Elisabeth Has Finally Made It Home!!!!

Hey y’all! I had finally got my newest gal, Elisabeth Rachael Snow, home!

Enjoy this slideshow of pictures of her. Because OMFG, she’s beautiful!!!!




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I promised I’d write something about this sometime.

Welcome home, Elisabeth! I love you!



Oh… I’ve really gotta give some huge MMFWCL to Don Delano over at Mon Amour Toujours for assisting me through the whole process. From pre-sale, during and after the sale. he was always available to answer my questions, whether through email, TDF (The Doll Forum) or by a phone call. That’s the reason why I chose Mon Amour Toujours over the other vendors available on TDF. Well, one of the reasons. The other is that he has stated that he is a doll lover first, vendor second. That’s what tipped my scales in favor of dealing with him over the others. I’m gonna order my next doll from him, and every subsequent doll thereafter. Whoop whoop!